revealed last night that he has entered rehab for “depression and suicidal urges.”
The 32-year-old Cleveland-born rapper, whose real name is Scott Mescudi, laid his struggles bare in an emotional Facebook post, explaining, “I am not at peace. I haven’t been since you’ve known me.” Mescudi noted that his forthcoming sixth album, Passion, Pain & Demon Slayin’, will come out as planned, though it is currently without an exact release date.
“If all goes well ill be out in time for Complexcon and ill be lookin forward to seeing you all there for high fives and hugs,” Mescudi wrote, referring to the Long Beach, Calif. music festival that he is slated to headline on Nov. 5. Fans have responded to Mescudi’s Facebook post with an outpouring of support, with one writing, “I truly hope you get the help you deserve Scott. This gon sound corny as hell but you helped me a lot too, and I hope you get the help you gave me and a lot of other lost kids. Love.”
Find Mescudi’s full post below.
Its been difficult for me to find the words to what Im about to share with you because I feel ashamed. Ashamed to be a leader and hero to so many while admitting I’ve been living a lie. It took me a while to get to this place of commitment, but it is something I have to do for myself, my family, my best friend/daughter and all of you, my fans.
Yesterday I checked myself into rehab for depression and suicidal urges.
I am not at peace. I haven’t been since you’ve known me. If I didn’t come here, I wouldve done something to myself. I simply am a damaged human swimming in a pool of emotions everyday of my life. Theres a ragin violent storm inside of my heart at all times. Idk what peace feels like. Idk how to relax. My anxiety and depression have ruled my life for as long as I can remember and I never leave the house because of it. I cant make new friends because of it. I dont trust anyone because of it and Im tired of being held back in my life. I deserve to have peace. I deserve to be happy and smiling. Why not me? I guess I give so much of myself to others I forgot that I need to show myself some love too. I think I never really knew how. Im scared, im sad, I feel like I let a lot of people down and again, Im sorry. Its time I fix me. Im nervous but ima get through this.
I wont be around to promote much, but the good folks at Republic and my manager Dennis will inform you about upcoming releases. The music videos, album release date etc. The album is still on the way. Promise. I wanted to square away all the business before I got here so I could focus on my recovery.
If all goes well ill be out in time for Complexcon and ill be lookin forward to seeing you all there for high fives and hugs.
Love and light to everyone who has love for me and I am sorry if I let anyone down. I really am sorry. Ill be back, stronger, better. Reborn. I feel like shit, I feel so ashamed. Im sorry.
I love you,