What if you’re a relatively normal person with a relatively normally-complicated and
busy life – husband, kids, very full time job – who wishes to be more
spiritual, but who’s…shall we say…not very good at it? Who basically sucks at it? Or at
least, feels like she does?
many years I kept my mouth shut about it. Until I finally stopped. And started
writing a blog called Spiritual Suckitude, for the Chicago Tribune’s blogging
week I told the truth about not having any answers, about just stumbling and
fumbling along, full of questions about what God was even doing in the world, half the time, and trying to figure out what it might mean to actually follow
Jesus, even though I’m embarrassed to say those words because of all the crazy
crap that has been said and done and continues to be said and done in the name
of Jesus. (And also because bringing up Jesus in the place where I work – a big
Chicago ad agency - just makes you odd, makes you seem like a person who might
Jim Jones the break room coffee.)
after week, I began embracing my own pathetic little spiritual journey in all
its subpar-ness. Taking it, just as it was, loving it for just what it was, in
all its imperfection. As I wrote about my not so-good-at-being-godly life, something started happening. Moments when a little mercy leaked through, or when miracles
meandered by, and I managed to catch a whiff of them, just in time. And even
when that didn't happen, I discovered that simply paying attention was a minor
miracle, and that the unspoken, finally spoken, is a kind of grace.
Just As I Am is a somewhat edited collection of those blog posts from the last two years. They weave a picture of a spiritual journey that's a little less "Eat. Pray. Love." and a bit more "Eat. Whine. Apologize." But there's a lot of love and prayer in these stories, too. As well as quite a bit of laughter. Written with the wish that these tales of work, parenting,
recovery, faith and doubt just might help you embrace
your own, imperfectly perfect spiritual journey, just as it is.
Some of these chapters have also appeared as articles on the Red Letter Christians blog (redletterchristians.org). Thanks to the folks there, as well as to the ChicagoNow community of bloggers, and the people of LaSalle Street Church in Chicago, the little church on the corner of Elm and LaSalle you might hear mentioned a few times in these stories.