Love, Dishonor, Marry, Die, Cherish, Perish by David Rakoff
The special tribute episode, “Our Friend David,” of the radio show This American Life describes writer, performer and show favorite David Rakoff as a much-loved man who had “dozens of friends.” This stands in contrast to his literary persona as an acerbic, dry, self-deprecating culture creature with a purring voice. That carefully crafted persona apparently often felt like a burden. In life, Rakoff was a Canadian ex-pat who struggled with cancer, but in his work he could be both brutally honest and wickedly incisive in a quintessentially New York way, full of hair-trigger jabs one moment and all-too recognizable pain and self-loathing the next.
Rakoff died last summer a few years shy of 50, relatively soon after finishing his final book, either a long poem or a short novel (depending on how you look at it) told in rhyming couplets with accompanying illustrations. He gave it the curious title of Love, Dishonor, Marry, Die, Cherish, Perish. He rendered these seemingly contradictory pairs on a chunky, baby book-style cover with the image of a bold, beautiful redheaded woman overlaid on a psychedelic matrix of swirling colors…with holes punched out for each letter.
The face comes as the first of many we see in this sometimes dawdling but consistently admirable work. If Love, Dishonor is not sui generis, it’s definitely sui Rakoff, which could even be a higher distinction.
The story begins in the early half of the 20th century with the birth of a girl named Margaret (perhaps later the mysterious redhead on the cover?), to an unnamed mother in Chicago.
From there, we hop around in separate sections to the perspectives of an assortment of troubled souls lost in the following generations. An artist named Clifford grows up to join the underground comix scene of San Francisco and create gay porno Batman parodies. We meet Susan, an art gallery worker, Nathan, her bitter ex-boyfriend, and Clifford’s cousin, Helen, who despite herself might be the character who comes closest to achieving some sort of lasting happiness.
In (mostly) tightly woven lines, Rakoff drums us through numerous decades, inner monologues and outer tribulations, taking the sort of meter that usually calls Dr. Seuss and Christmas to mind and applying it to subjects like adultery, AIDS, sexual abuse, abortion, alcoholism and dementia. The contrast may have been a big part of the appeal of this project, and fits in with a larger theme—a tug between opposite poles that threatens stability.
As the story continues, familiar faces grow old and tired. A disgraced teenage Margaret hitches a ride out of town (and effectively out of the story) on a train. Then the focus shifts to the talented Clifford, who goes on to have a key encounter with Helen, the latter posing for a flirtatious photo with oranges held in front of her bare breasts. This image returns throughout the narrative, perhaps as a symbol of the good times we always have to struggle to hold onto.
The cartoonish drawings (by the Canadian artist Seth), tactile construction and rhyme scheme make the entire production further seem like a rediscovered 1950s nursery collection corrupted by the years. Foremost, we should think of it as a work of great construction, or, as Rakoff puts it, referring to his character Clifford’s art practice:
“torments endured with a saint’s skyward smile, nuance, technique, composition and style.”
Rakoff, who experimented with such sophisticated verbal patterns in memorable radio pieces like his bittersweet Gregor Samsa/Dr. Seuss correspondence, has an obvious familiarity with such neo-formalist shenanigans. Here, he similarly deconstructs the associations we have with anapestic tetrameter (dubba-DUH dubba-DUH dubba-DUH dubba) as “children’s verse,” just as the monochrome character portraits separating the different ‘chapters’ draw us back to visions of more innocent tomes…but instead show us visages that appear angry, lustful, pompous, confused, defeated.
Many an English student may remember that rhymes can suggest duality, a pattern we can understand, the eternal coin flip of high and low. Love, Dishonor mostly resists the use of enjambment to blend lines together, instead driving us again and again back to the lockstep feeling of setup/punchline. The closer you enter into the entirety of the book’s vision, the more it works: As Rakoff’s scorpion says, “my form is my function.” (One of the moments where Rakoff cleverly changes his style comes when a character actually tries to speak in verse and fails.)
The motif crucial to Rakoff’s moral comes out in the central passage, a disastrous toast given by a still-seething Nathan at Susan’s wedding. It re-tells the fable of the scorpion and the tortoise (or is it a turtle?). In its tale of a good thing undone by a needless sting, the fable echoes something nearly all of the characters encounter in one way or another, whether the appearance of HIV in the artistic and sexual Utopia of the Castro…or the arrival of Alzheimer’s, decrepitude and regret in old age.
Some sections work so well they can almost be extracted and read on their own like epigrams. On Sally, Clifford’s Aunt:
“An adverb of joy to his six-year-old thinking
to ‘do it “Auntsally”’ meant action plus drinking.”
On the advancement of age:
“And so with no warning and no indication
the years concertina’d: expansion, deflation…”
Nathan at the wedding:
“His shirt had been ironed, his belt brightly buckled
a shine on his shoes, a well turned-out cuckold.”
These lines can irritate the verse-phobic, but also challenge and amuse when Rakoff gives us more than artifice on which to feast. For this to come off as greater than a stunt exercise, we need to regard these characters as real individuals rather than Edward Gorey-esque constructions to be punished for our edification. For the most part, the author succeeds, especially in the unsettling final Clifford section, where we find a once-proud free spirit reduced to pitiable ashes.
However…no matter how skilled and experienced the writer, some words only rhyme with other words.
A few of the author’s couplets reach a level of imaginative and (probably) deliberate atrocity (I don’t think even Shel Silverstein ever dared to rhyme “paradise” with “pubic lice”), but in other places the meter hiccups for no apparent reason and derails the mood rather than enhances it.
Rakoff generally appears at his best here when he zeroes in on the specifics of his imaginary subjects’ lives, thoughts and actions…whether items served at a wedding feast, the contents of a jacket pocket, Margaret’s mental rebuffs to the sexual taunts of some meat plant workers, or even Nathan’s glum encounter with a urinal (“A cast of nobility, designed for the peeing on.”). The energy sags most noticeably in those sequences where Rakoff gets a little too precious, such as setting up a straw conservative in one of Clifford’s stanzas in order to make a blowjob joke while scoring some cheap points for free speech (although it’s one of the more eyebrow-raising “mouth/south” pairings you might ever hear).
He comes across in print as a sharp-witted craftsman, but in the end Rakoff leaves us with something like that photograph of Helen and the oranges—a little bit of something glad to hold on to after it’s all over.
Still, maybe it’s enough to just be grateful for those few moments in life when we get the tortoise shell instead of the sting.
W. A. Hughes is a writer and blogger living in Boston.