I Saw the TV Glow Is a Fascinating Trans Metaphor, But Not Much Else

I Saw the TV Glow is a really easy film to want to root for. Writer/director Jane Schoenbrun has been given an almost unprecedented amount of creative control for an openly transgender filmmaker on a major platform (though A24 still isn’t on the level of Lana Wachowski making The Matrix Resurrections at WB), and Schoenbrun’s trans identity impacts the story they wish to tell in undeniably compelling ways. The trans community has often been marginalized throughout cinematic history, with movies’ often harmful representation shaping public perception. The majority of trans-relevant themes gleaned from mainstays of popular cinema are largely unintended by cisgender filmmakers to appeal specifically to that community. Schoenbrun certainly has contemporaries, such as Vera Drew (The People’s Joker) and Alice Miao Mackay (So Vam, T-Blockers), but the relative high profile of I Saw the TV Glow makes it something of a unicorn, the mythical vessel for a transgender film critic to finally see some of their specific experiences reflected back at them through the power of well-funded auteurist cinema. Why, then, does I Saw the TV Glow feel so insubstantial?
Schoenbrun’s film follows Owen (initially played by Ian Foreman before aging into Justice Smith for the majority of the runtime), a kid floating through the ennui-infused haze of his late-’90s suburban upbringing. He meets Maddy (Brigette Lundy-Paine), a high schooler obsessed with the TV show The Pink Opaque, which reads like a Nickelodeon SNICK show filtered through the monster-of-the-week sensibilities of Buffy the Vampire Slayer. Owen has longed to watch the show himself, but it always airs after his bedtime, prompting him to sneak over to Maddy’s house for a surreptitious watch party sleepover. Thus begins a fixation where the lines of the show’s reality and the unreal malaise of Owen’s daily existence start to dissolve, begging questions of identity and repression in a world that seems gradually more hostile for its banality.
To delve much deeper into the film’s sparse plot would be to deconstruct the mystery of its central metaphor, but if there is one thing that Schoenbrun excels at, it is empathetically communicating transgender experience through cinematic language instead of direct representation. There’s a pervasive sense that nothing fits together in Owen’s world, that he’s outside his own life looking into a reality that is wrong for him to inhabit. His attraction to The Pink Opaque, a show targeted at teenage girls, is an unspoken masculine taboo, and his initial interactions with Maddy are of an outsider desiring connection with someone who shares his fixated interest, a compulsion that even he doesn’t fully understand. Eventual discussions of claiming hidden selves and the suffocating feeling of failing to embrace that truth are emblematic of why people transition at all, and if I Saw the TV Glow is to be considered a horror film, that horror is entirely existential, the terror of lost personhood in the prison of suburban comfort.
This is portrayed through a surreal, neon-infused filter that blends middle-class normalcy with the lo-fi Canadian aesthetic of late ’90s television, complete with an original soundtrack reminiscent of the weekly musical performances found on many shows of the era, reinforcing Owen’s conception that the show is more real to him than his daily life. That’s a level of dissociation that will be familiar for many transgender folks, and to see that experience affirmed and reflected in a widely released theatrical film is absolutely unique. It bears repeating that I Saw the TV Glow is historic in that sense, and for that reason alone it is worth commending as a way for trans people to connect with themselves and process a pain they may not realize even exists.