The Americans Leaves Nothing on the Table in Its Jaw-Dropping Series Finale
(Episode 6.10)
Photo: Jeffrey Neira/FX
No man is an island entire of itself; every man
Is a piece of the continent, a part of the main;
If a clod be washed away by the sea, Europe
Is the less, as well as if a promontory were, as
Well as any manner of thy friends or of thine
Own were; any man’s death diminishes me,
Because I am involved in mankind.
And therefore never send to know for whom
The bell tolls; it tolls for thee. —John Donne, Devotions upon Emergent Occasions
It’d almost be funny, how fast one’s life can unravel, were the experience itself not so profoundly upsetting. Houses, spouses, American kids, new cars and old friends, longtime careers: The emblems of “success” we spend decades accruing turn out to be tenuous whether we wish it or not, and when the bell tolls—and it tolls for all of us—the choices are stark indeed. The final episode of The Americans—the series entire—is about these choices, about careful plans and awful surprises, about chaos, confusion, fear, regret, about who we are when push comes to shove and how far that is from who we hoped we’d be. The most magnificent sequence in “START,” after all, is the one laser-focused on the pain of endings, set to U2’s “With or Without You”: “My hands are tied / My body bruised…” the song reports, an anthem of impossible choices if ever there was one. “Nothing to win and / Nothing left to lose.”
Philip’s (Matthew Rhys) intake of breath in the opening frames is as much for us, then, as it is for himself, a moment of steadiness before the Jennings’ universe spins off its axis. It doesn’t last long, either: He and Elizabeth (Keri Russell) decide to abandon Henry (Keidrich Sellati) at the beginning of “START,” and the consequences rumble like a freight train through the rest of the hour. It’s also the first indication that the episode, whether or not you rank it with the series’ finest, is by some margin its most boldly emotional; from the moment Elizabeth’s eyes search her husband’s for a crack in his façade, and we see her realize that this is the rightest of their limited options, it’s as if six seasons of coded language and terse exchanges finally burst forth in an eruption of feeling. Though no one dies in “START,” it carries the force of a funeral procession, mourning the lives the characters might’ve led, or did, before accepting the loss as irrevocable: As Elizabeth says at episode’s end, surveying the lights of Moscow for the first time in ages, “Who knows what would have happened here?”
Who knows what would have happened: This begins to suggest the gestalt of “START,” its central principle, which is the belief that regret is both inevitable and impossible. Stan’s (Noah Emmerich) stunning confrontation with Philip, Elizabeth and Paige (Holly Taylor), for instance, is a discussion of his best friend and betrayer’s regrets as much as his own: “You made my life a joke,” Stan laments, hurt and humiliated to an extent one can scarcely imagine. “You were my only friend in my whole shitty life,” Philip replies, almost pleading. “For all these years, my life was the joke, not yours.” I can’t say why Stan chooses not to pull the trigger, nor does he need, in a series so suffused with ambivalence and complication, one singular reason. Perhaps it’s his concern for his friend in New Hampshire—his plaintive “Henry?” brought tears to my eyes—or Elizabeth’s mention of her own broken trust. Though it contains so much to unpack—Stan’s periodic flashes of all-consuming fury, which fade into awestruck silence; the Jennings’ arrangement into a defensive V; the fact that Elizabeth still prefers to lie at this late hour, as much for Paige’s benefit as for Stan’s—it strikes me now that the scene turns on Philip’s admission that he, too, is desperate for time long since lost.