The Bell Jar Is for Sad Boys Too

Shortly after moving to New York, I slid into a deep depression. Initially, I fought it as one might fight to stay awake after a long day, my head nodding or a car honking the only things that could jolt my eyes back open. But, eventually, the weariness triumphed, and I found myself trapped in a leaden, aimless slumber from which I struggled to wake up, every day, for months.
One morning during this lonesome period, my feet dragged me to the Strand Bookstore, where I picked out Sylvia Plath’s The Bell Jar from a “modern classics” table near the front. While some men might turn to self-isolation and brewskis when feeling blue, I wanted a confidant in misery. Esther Greenwood, the sharp-tongued yet fitfully disturbed young woman at the center of the novel, could be that confidant, I thought. I wanted to commiserate with someone who was wrestling with similar burdens—career satisfaction, societal expectations, New York disillusionment. But what I really wanted, I realized, was to know that, unlike Esther and the writer who created her, in the end, I would get better.
First published in London in January 1963 under a pseudonym, The Bell Jar is Plath’s only novel. And, as with her two poetry collections, The Colossus and Ariel (her magnum opus), it is impossible to read without the specter of Plath’s death by suicide looming over its every word. In its tragic, headline-grabbing nature, this event, which occurred just weeks after the novel’s publication to tepid reviews, launched her to international fame and subsequent tortured genius stature. The Bell Jar, then, became the story of a woman who fails to end her life inscribed by the woman who succeeded in ending hers.
But apart from the roman à clef’s status as a pseudo-documentation of the inner mechanics of a sickly, wildly inventive mind, The Bell Jar is at its core a fierce coming-of-age novel. Esther is a college student whose writing pedigree grants her a prestigious summer internship at a sophisticated women’s magazine in New York. She’s wiser and haughtier than the other girls living in her hotel, though significantly less worldly: she questions how much to tip a cab driver and orders a plain glass of vodka on a date because she’d once seen it in an ad. From fine dining excursions to fashion shows and parties, Esther lives out a million girls’ dreams of life in 1950s Manhattan. But something is wrong with her. As she says, “I felt very still and very empty, the way the eye of a tornado must feel, moving dully along in the middle of the surrounding hullabaloo.”
What, particularly, is wrong with her is spelled out gradually. Within the pantheon of modern female literary figures, Esther may be most casually associated nowadays with the crackly melancholia of Virginia Woolf’s Clarissa Dalloway or Kate Chopin’s Edna Pontellier. But her constitution contains something these characters lack: a fury within her chest that drives her destructive behavior. Her shrewd dissections of New York’s high society are reminiscent of J.D. Salinger’s Holden Caulfield, with his penchant for rum ‘n cokes and distaste for “phonies,” though Esther’s judgments remain less cantankerous and decidedly more inward-facing—and feminine.