Julia Wolf Finds the Line Between Innocence and Adulthood on Pressure

Track By Track: The New York musician takes us behind the scenes of every song on her third album.

Julia Wolf Finds the Line Between Innocence and Adulthood on Pressure
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The title of Julia Wolf’s new album makes a lot of sense. Pressure carries a lot on its shoulders, balancing feelings of lost innocence, human competition, obsessions, destiny, the entanglement of insecurities and empowerment across 11 trap-pop bangers. Featuring a production cohort of Cody Tarpley and Lynn Gunn, Wolf’s third LP runs on metal textures and electronic interpretations of emo and shoegaze. A longtime DIY artist, her approach this time was less hands-off yet the collaborative spirit rushes through restless, digitized captivation, landing somewhere in-between Evanescence and Jane Remover. As industry pressures sunk in during the aftermath of her 2023 release Good Thing We Stayed, Wolf turned the camera onto herself. “I wasn’t feeling seen or accepted,” she says. “So I wanted this album to really express the emotions that came with that: the soft doubt, the lack of confidence, the comparing myself to literally everyone that breathes. This was my chance to really lay it all out and be the most honest I’ve ever been.”

Pressure tackles negative spaces with similarly solemn storytelling, but even her moodiest impulses are captured in prismatic, glitchy, head-splitting sequences. It was a holistic, challenging endeavor. “I’m talking about how I would travel to the end of the earth to destroy this person, and using the sonic palette to support that,” Wolf says. “That’s why it gets so heavy. I’m yelling my face off to emphasize how much I really need this person out of my life.” Julia Wolf was kind enough to give us her thoughts on all 11 tracks to coincide with today’s release. Read the breakdown and listen to Pressure below.

“Kill You Off”

“Kill You Off” is about the loss of innocence and rage that comes with feeling betrayed as a young child. A lot of feelings from my youth have definitely carried over into my adulthood where, now, traveling “3000 miles” to kill off the person to blame is something I wish I could do. But along the way I’m also questioning my faith, passing billboards that remind me Jesus “heals, he saves,” yet am left wondering why that salvation couldn’t reach me back then, and why it isn’t me reaching now.

“Pearl”

“Pearl” is really about the frustrations I was dealing with of someone blatantly copying what you do while simultaneously showing support because they admire your work. It’s pretty blunt but I’m trying to show how laughable the charade is, pointing out how someone can try all they want but the transparency in their actions makes it all feel like a joke.

“Fingernails”

“Fingernails” is about my fear and vulnerability when falling in love with someone. The imagery is meant to show how tormenting it is to not know how someone else feels. It’s about wanting to give a person everything, even if it means sacrificing parts of yourself, but also worrying it won’t be enough. There is a push and pull of insecurity, and longing—aching to be seen, but unsure what that will entail.

“Loser”

“Loser” to me feels like the agonizing sequel to In My Room. It’s pretty revealing in terms of how dark my brain can get when it comes to loving someone I feel I’ll never measure up to. Admitting things like chugging NyQuil and burning over coals is just to show how low my self worth gets. It’s the pure struggle of obsession, devotion, and begging for connection, constantly in fear of losing someone due to a wrong move on my part, hence the drafting texts in the notes app.

“FYP”

“FYP” flips between the moments of self doubt and confidence I feel in this industry that so heavily relies on social media. It’s a mix of pride, self reflection, and self acceptance, going through the journey that’s shaped everything in my career up to this point. It turns jealousy into empowerment, realizing sometimes I am good enough to hold significance in this industry and things aren’t actually as serious as I think.

“Limewire”

“Limewire” is about my fear of being truly seen by someone—and then the even greater fear of being completely invisible to them. It’s about how my anxiety of opening up can leave me saying nothing at all at the most important of times. I also worry a lot about growing apart, and this is sort of me going through the quiet panic of realizing how important it is to say what I feel before it’s too late.

“Girls”

“Girls” goes through the inner struggle of supporting other women you admire while also battling your own inner insecurities and self doubt. It involves jealousy and heavy self criticism, especially the older I get and the more societal pressures mount. But the core of the song is to not put blame on anyone other than myself. I struggle to love what I see in the mirror and sometimes it affects how I root for others.

“Jennifer’s Body”

Obviously referencing the movie Jennifer’s Body these lyrics are meant to paint how invisible I can feel next to someone who seems to effortlessly captivate everyone in a room. My brain just can’t fathom being chosen by anyone when people like “Jennifer” exist. I always feel like I’ve already lost because I can’t compete against someone like her, even when my boyfriend is telling me the opposite.

“In My Room”

“In My Room” is about the ache of missing someone who’s moved on. It’s the obsessive back and forth nature of wanting to hold onto pieces of someone who isn’t looking to be held by you anymore. Suddenly I’m stalking myself on the internet trying to interpret how said person might perceive me, and see what I can fix about myself to best keep them around and interested, when in reality, they were already long gone.

“Sunshine State”

I wrote “Sunshine State” about finding someone who understands the weight of my past because he too has dealt with loss and hardship. The person it’s about grew up in Florida, so the imagery is meant to show how impossible it felt for him to chase his dreams in a town where most people never leave. I hold so much love, admiration, and understanding for him having to choose between leaving his family and seeing what the world has to offer. The song is about feeling destined for each other long before we met because we both know what it feels like to make that choice.

“You’ve Lost a Lot of Blood”

This song is really about betrayal and my refusal to forgive. I reference childhood memories and the inability to defend yourself when you’re young. That’s what all those “tiny sword, tiny hands, tiny, bed” lines and “prayed for death” with a stuffed animal in your lap are about. I just struggle letting go of my past and have definitely carried the weight of certain experiences into my adulthood.

Pressure is out now via girls in purgatory.

 
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